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So I wrote a letter explaining my situation, both with kidney stones, and with fibro, to the dean, so I can hopefully get part-time status. If anyone would like to read it, I'm going to post it, but under an lj-cut. Warning: it's very long. I started to cry when I finished because...well, I'm still realizing that I'm going to be disabled for the rest of my life. I'm still getting used to the idea. I'm also thinking of making a little...flier sort of thing with an excerpt from this to give to people if they ever ask me about it. I recently got a really cool fibro shirt that says "I have fibromyalgia--it does NOT have me" and I'm probably going to get at least one more. People are bound to ask about it, and I want to give them a thorough answer. (Side note about the shirt: I got it from cafepress and it was advertised as a "women's t-shirt." I can't wear men's t-shirts because for one thing I'm really small and even the smalls don't fit me. And also, hello, BIG BREASTS which get squeezed by the shirt and it looks weird and is uncomfortable. So I figured that a women's shirt would allow for some space in that area. WRONG. It squeezes almost as much as a men's shirt would! Grr, I am angry. It's so hard to find clothes to fit. But I am still keeping the shirt.

I also wanted to say, because I haven't said it enough, how much I love you guys. You have all been so supportive and wonderful through my ordeal, I don't know what I'd do without you. I appreciate your love so much and one of these days I want to do something nice for all of you. I'd say cookies (my cookies used to be pretty famous), but then those of you who don't live near me couldn't have any and I wouldn't want that.

My birthday is next monday. Last year we had a kind of impromptu get together and it was really fun. Maybe we could have a more of a formal one this time at our house, assuming Andre and I are all unpacked? Or even if we aren't, we live right next to Ohlone park, so we could have it there. Then you guys would get some of my yummy baking. What do you all think?

Oh, and I also want to reiterate that I am BLESSED BLESSED BLESSED by having Andre in my life. As of today, I think, we have officially been together for two and a half years (the longest relationship either of us has been in) and I am so lucky to have him! I love him so much. He is gorgeous, sweet, smart, kind, loving, feministy, and just plain great in every way. He is so understanding about my fibro and everything. I also feel like a person around him, like he sees me as a person, not just a "girl" (does this make sense?) Like we're not a girl and a boy in love, we're two people in love. Even though I get mad at him sometimes, I love him with all my heart. I couldn't ask for more in a significant other.

Anyways, enough of my pain-killer-induced rambling, here's the letter.

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