Bits and Tids
These are all things I feel deserve separate posts--long, thoughtful posts. But I'm short on time and energy, so I will have to make it quick.

1. I've been working pretty hard on my thesis; thus, my absence from livejournal. It's due on Monday. I'm exhausted. I'm ready for it to be done, but, at the same time, I want to keep working on it and improving it forever. I don't think I will ever be truly satisfied with it though.

2. I'm worried about the Iranian people. There's so much courage over there. I hope for revolution and I hope for their safety.

3. I can't believe I didn't post anything about Dr. Tiller's death. Shocking, upsetting, totally horrifying, but not especially surprising coming from the terrorist wing of the pro-life movement. I'm not sure what else to say that hasn't already been said more eloquently by other people. I think eyelid put it best when she pointed out that, despite their claims that life is sacred, pro-lifers have a very active terrorist component to their movement and a long history of intimidation, violence, and murder. Dr. Tiller was murdered because he saved women's lives. That is not indicative of respect for life.

4. Evan has moved back up to Napa for his summer job. I don't know if I mentioned that or not. I will still get to see him most weekends. I miss him.

5. As of one week ago, I have had Ray for two years. I can't believe it! He has blossomed so much in his time with me. The other day I was at my parents house and he was lying on the floor, so I went and sat next to him so he could put his head in my lap. I rubbed his ears and he put his paw on my knee and licked my hand. And he looked so, so happy. I love him so much. I am so glad I am able to bring some joy into his life; he has brought so much into mine.

6. Six weeks post-op today. The stimulator is still causing a few problems, muscle spasms and such. But...it's working. I saw Eve on Friday for my first Enterra check-up and we turned the stimulator up to five. I thought it was at five before, but, I guess it wasn't. Since then, I have only had to use painkillers once and have only thrown up twice. And I'm still eating more, although I've lost another pound. Eve thinks I'm having malabsorption issues, but, she also thinks those will improve with the rest of my symptoms. I can't believe I am getting better. Being able to eat more than a few bites at a time, being able to eat without being in horrendous amounts of pain..it's amazing. I wish I had gotten Enterra a long time ago. I feel so lucky. I feel like I don't deserve this. But I am so grateful and so thankful. I could get used to this. As Eve was quick to remind me, this is not a cure, just a treatment, and I will still have bad days, but hopefully, they'll be few and far between instead of every day. And I know the odds are very likely that I'll get worse someday. But that day is not today. And I am thankful for today.

7. Octreotide shipment delayed again. I'm currently out of medication. Blaaaugh.